I’ve been reading other blogs and all the blogs I read were pretty darn inspirational and I was in awe with the love people have for God and what He has done in their lives and the blogging ministry they share with people like me. I know that eventually I will get to where they are now but I sure wish it were now. I notice that people like me that have been abuse have made such a turn around when they gave their lives to God. Why in the world didn’t I do that and make things easier for myself instead of wallowing in self-pity, anger and bitterness.
My life would’ve been so much better had I surrender completely to God. I made some pretty poor choices in my life and I have disgrace God with my actions but I am so grateful that He loves me unconditionally and has forgiven me for my abysmal behavior. I am appreciative for what He is doing now in my life and how He will be glorified through me. I pray that I will be able to minister to those that are broken and how God worked to those that have helped me through my blogging. I want to say those words “If God can change me He can change you too”. Nothing is impossible for God; with Him ALL things are possible for those that believe.
My journey in healing has been no picnic I stumble and fall more than I ever have in my entire life but the difference now is that I get up. I don’t stay down and defeated like I have in the past. I still say idiotic things and get angry over dumbest things but I recognize them whereas in the past I wouldn’t care and to prideful to say I’m sorry. It’s not easy to change and it’s not easy to adapt to those changes but I know that with each passing day I have the opportunity to learn whether it’s from mistakes I make that day or learn from the mistakes I made from my past. I have the chance to enhance my future with what God is teaching me at this moment.