I’ve been thinking about this for a few days now and I guess I am looking for a validation from God when indeed God is probably waiting on me. A few days ago I went through a few blogs and came across a woman that had been through a lot of pain in her life and she was so optimistic in her walk with Christ, I was very inspired. In her blog she had a menu bar “prayer request” I thought about putting in my request for Emotional Healing and for God to open doors for me to go to school to become a writer but as I scrolled down the list it seemed almost infinite. I didn’t think I was ever going to get to the bottom of that prayer request box and then I thought she has way to many to even notice my petty prayer request. To my amazement she did, in fact she emailed me and called me her dear sister and that she would be praying for me, I thought, “wow, how is that possible?”
I remembered a sermon once & it was about something to the effect that when you help someone that is hurting more than you, your healing begins. I don’t know just how true that is but a ministry has to start some place, right?
You know I don’t even know if I can help someone because I’m still an emotional mess and still have issues with anger and being critical of others so I don’t think I’m qualified. But what if that’s the enemy telling me that so I don’t heal by helping someone? What if I add a prayer request on my menu bar, does this make me a hypocrite, what if I write something on my blog that is not edifying to the seer’s, will I be judged, what if I sabotage this like I have everything else would that make me a bad person? What if……..what if…….what if……. so many what if’s.
Please keep me in your prayers for God’s guidance on this because I wouldn’t know what to write to those seeking prayer, I don’t think I’m qualified just yet but I do know this is something I would love to eventually do. In the meantime if you do need prayer let me know and I will go to God for your need(s). You’re in my prayers!