Sometimes in life there are no words to describe how you feel whether you’re angry, sad, happy or cheerful. No matter how you’re feeling or what you’re going through, know that God is on your side. I think that is reason enough to smile.
If God is for us, who can be against us? Romans 8:31
The Lord has anointed me . . . to proclaim liberty to captives and freedom to prisoners (Is. 61:1).
The other day I was about to make up the bed when I told the doggies to get off the bed. I noticed that Milo went inside Bella’s kennel, then after he went in there Tessie followed and then shortly after that Bella went in to join Milo and Tessie.
My husband grabbed my arm to show me that all 3 doggies were in this small kennel. We both started to laugh and I took several pictures of them trying to fit in there, when I tried to call them out it took them a short while to get out of the kennel.
As I was downloading the picture it spoke to me a biblical form and I thought how many times do we allow ourselves to be imprisoned by satan’s lies? I sat there for a moment or so and realized how I allowed him to deceive me with the lies of my past hurts, he’s not even crafty, he has no talent but no less we begin to believe his lies.
I thank God for showing me Histruth, I don’t have to subject myself to those lies that satan tries to feed me, now don’t misunderstand me there are times when I still fall into those lies but just then God reminds me that it’s not true and I don’t have to believe the enemy.
I woke very early this morning because I had a doctor’s appointment and a series of bad dreams, lol. I have to tell you I dread going to the doctor’s, first of all, I’m there for hours and then when they do call me after all preliminaries; I’m in there waiting in a cold room for another 2 hours before the doctor comes in. I’m bored out of my wits and I’m falling asleep and the walls are thin enough that I can hear him laughing and chatting away with his patient. I guess I just don’t understand that if your appointment is at 10:30 a.m. why do I get out at 3:00 and to top it off my visit w/him was 25 minutes. Sometimes I stay even later depending on the blood test he may want to check. I have a pet peeve about this though, if I am over 15 minutes late they will cancel my appointment, been there done that. This is the part where I need patience, I even use my phone to play a game or scroll through the internet because I bored and restless. After the battery on my phone dies they only have 2 boring magazines in the exam room, this is funny but yet crazy. Does anybody else go through this or is it just my doctor? What’s your take on this?
I woke up feeling very happy because of what happened last night; it was a breakthrough for me in my relationship w/my husband. Saturday evening we attended a 3-day conference at a church that my husband’s co-worker invited him to; they had a guest speaker from the Power Team preach that evening (for those that don’t know what the power team is, they are know for their strength and break bricks and so forth). I don’t remember the name of man that preached but he talked about how he has never been a talker so when God called him to preach he wasn’t comfortable. He said to this day he will preach but still does not talk very much. During the sermon he said that while he was saved he was miserable, these are words he said that were an oxymoron. How can you be saved and miserable at the same time? Well he explained that by doing things for God he would move up the ladder, like be a worship leader or a youth minister etc., etc. When those things didn’t happen he because miserable so he stopped doing things for God. Then he read that God’s ways are not our ways we don’t move up a ladder in God like we do in the corporate world. Anyway a lot was said in regards to that part of the sermon that lead to of the end of the message; he said I don’t want to live if I don’t change. The last part of that sermon is exactly what got me to start my blog. I knew at that moment I was doing the right thing with this blog. I didn’t want to continue living my life in anger, unforgiveness or bitterness. I’m not going to I know that I won’t change overnight but I know that for once in my life I am on that right path. All this time wasted on my past emotions but oh well, better late than never. If you have any thing to share w/me please feel free to comment.
Yesterday, I had brunch with 2 of my cousins, my aunt and their friend, and we laughed and shared stories of our past, some extreme and some hurtful but listening to the friend & about his past was shocking but how remarkably he changed his past. Then my cousin shared a story of her daughter and the pain she endured with the father that now things were coming along as a family of unity after many years together. The father/husband realize how valuable “family” meant to him and now is doing all that he can do to not lose them again. Driving home from the restaurant I came across church billboards with different quotes “Swallow your pride, it doesn’t contain calories”, another that read “Exercise Daily-walk with God” 2 different sayings with the same metaphors and I realize that by changing my past meant I was going to have to swallow my pride and exercise daily with my walk in Christ. You can either; walk, run or skip in your journey; regardless it’s going to happen. Whether I choose to walk, run or skip life will go on but I have to make sure that while life hasn’t stopped I need to change and build better relationships.
Late last night I spent my time reading blogs on the “Journal tag” upon reading some of the journals there were so many blogs on weight loss and then there were some that inspired me and I felt the need to comment on their blog and then there were some that were sad but their blog offered a reason to live life to the fullest. Among all those blogs that I commented on were 2 people that responded to my blog and offered encouragement and to them I say “THANKS”, it was exactly what I needed to feel that I wasn’t on this journey alone. I’m a baby walking and talking for the first time and I need guidance from those that have walked in my shoes or for those who refuse to walk in my shoes because they don’t want the repercussions that I have endured. I know this for sure I don’t want to spend my life this way any more and I don’t want to look back and see regrets in my past or in my future so here is my time to heal and be the person that God has me to be. My steps may be small but all those time that I ran w/o any direction I am willing to take my time with a direction that will set me free from my past. To those that listened and understood me and offered encouragement “thank you.”
I don’t want to be a cartoon character inside looking out. I want to be out living life to the fullest and planning my dreams and living today as if were my last. A river flows in one direction and I don’t want to be that river.